Tuesday, January 22, 2019

I made to class on the first day! On time!

It's the first day of the new semester, and all my stuff is photocopied, and my lecture is ready to go, and I have done 45 minutes worth of administrative tasks, and I STILL have 16 minutes before my class!

I don't look awesome because I used my eye shadow crease color under my brow and then tried to highlight on top of it, and things kind of escalated from there.  And also I have acupuncture today and no time to change before it, so I had to wear loose acupuncture clothes.  But!  ON TIME, baby!

And!  The house it totally tidy (although I did not wipe down the 2 upstairs bathrooms or sweep the kitchen floor).  The kids left happily with all of their winter gear.  I worked out for 42 minutes (which is how long it took me to break 3 miles because I TRUDGE in the morning), and I have already had 28 oz of water.

On the downside, though, it took longer to drive to campus than I was anticipating, so I have to up my game before my adjunct class on Friday that's EVEN EARLIER.  Also!  It took me 20 minutes to leave the house after the kids left for school even though all I had to do was throw on the outfit I had mentally assembled.  Turns out, I need to PHYSICALLY assemble the outfit, including boot socks (never easy to find) and jewelry (always in a snarl).  I also need to START MY CAR because holy shit it's cold outside, and I used the windshield wiper fluid to clear a little frost and then had to pull over on a side street until defrost warmed up because my whole windshield was instantly frozen over with a beautiful but totally opaque sheet of snowflake-patterned ice.  THAT'S WHAT ELSA MUST FEEL LIKE.  I also need to get my coat, scarf, and gloves ready the night before and probably my work bag, too.  Like I do for the kids.


On his way out the door, Harry goes, in the general direction of Jack;s phone, "Siri, call me sir."  And Jack's phone said in a British accent, "Okay, Sir, but I already call you sir."  And then I died laughing.

Here is Jack downloading a toothbrushing app, which he swears will help him remember to brush his teeth,  CROSS YOUR FINGERS.  Also, I outsource my memory to my smartphone, too.



Monday, January 21, 2019

Fitness reset?

It's still the first month of the year, and I already need a fitness reset.

I CAN'T STOP EATING LIKE A CRAZY PERSON.

Right now, for example, I should be grading for my online class, but instead I am sitting here noticing how tight my jeans are while eating a bowl of Frosted Flakes and some Red Vines.  WHAT IN THE HELL??

This ant farm is SO COOL.  When we feed the ants (every couple of days), they go NUTS with productivity
 Someone who does NOT go crazy with productivity
 BEST HIDING SPOT EVER
So, for realz.  Tomorrow.  I will stop eating like a crazy person.  And!  5 days of cardio and 3 30-minute yoga sessions between now (did cardio!) and Sunday.  Also lots of spinach and oranges.  Cheers!

Sunday, January 20, 2019

New Semester; New Problems

It turns out that last semester, the one where I was always bursting onto campus just minutes before my class and spent ZERO time with my writing projects?

Was the one, single semester of my entire working life that I would get to spend totally unencumbered by childcare and family responsibilities.  I had all the kids in school!  I had a partner who was always at home when I was at work!  I even had the flexibility to teach a night class!

And because I thought it was the beginning of a whole new era, I wasted all of that luxurious time.  Like when our online adjunct college used to give us EACH five sections a term and we basically flushed money down the toilet.

Last week, Ben accepted a new job.  A new job outside the academy.  A new job that he cannot work from home.  So guess who's back to being the DEFAULT PARENT?

Yup.

Now let me just say, it is an AMAZING job and one he is so, so, so excited about and knew he had to accept.  I knew he had to accept it, too. Wanted him to-- was over the moon when he called with the news, etc. And I am thrilled for him and for an exciting and fulfilling path rolling out in front of him.  So keep that in mind when you read the rest of this whine.

I am also so freaked out for me.  For my two late nights a week that can't be rescheduled and the childcare we absolutely do not have.  For the three impossibly early mornings I have each week that were going to be WAY EASIER with a partner at home to see the kids off to school and clean up the hurricane they leave behind each morning.  Or at least supervise them partially while working from bed so I could get a head start on the hurricane.

Ben got his teaching job when Cooper was a baby, so I don't know what it is like to be a working mom of so many kids with a partner who keeps normal business hours.  I suspect it sucks.

It's true that Ben has worked incredibly long hours, especially since he became department chair.  Almost every night, he worked well past when the kids went to bed, and he started his day working from his bed while the crazy school rush raged around him.  It's also true, though, that his time is completely his own. He decides when to go to campus; when to schedule meetings; which meetings he can Skype into while on dad duty; which classes he wants to teach; if he wants to teach in the classroom or online.  My two late days-- both of which are built into the department time table and have been on my calendar since I was a grad student in 2003-- have never been an issue.  When Harry and Jack were tiny, we had a nanny.  Then they went to a preschool that let them stay late 2 days a week when Ben worked at Study Blue.  And then, since the end of 2010, Ben has been home with them on those nights.  AND WHAT DO WE DO NOOOOOOOW??  In the middle of a school year when on-site wrap around care is full, and their big brother has a different dismissal time??

(We have a plan and another one for next semester, etc, but I thought the days of stressing about where the kids would be when I was working were over, and I wasn't even going to miss them.)

What does this mean about the fifth baby I still dream about even though my old lady body appears to be rebelling?

For the 2-week summer institute I am directing in another state this summer?

For the summer school class I will be teaching online with no grown up to man the children at least a few hours a week?

GAH.

But!  You guys!  I am not a terrible person.  I am absolutely happy about this opportunity and ready to be a great partner, and even though I am still not someone who irons, I can totally be the person who picks up the dry cleaning and remembers to put Downy Wrinkle Releaser on the Target drive up order.  That's for real and also, I think, a metaphor.

More about the new gig soon, and you KNOW there will be more about my selfish fears because you know why?  This is my blog.

If you work and your partner does, too, HOW THE HELL DO YOU DO IT ALL?

I mean, there's a reason we could both be PTO president at the kids' school in consecutive terms.  FLEXIBILITY.  How do we cope without it?  I am really asking-- gimmee your best tips.

On an unrelated note, Dorothy is into doing her own makeup, and I am here for that.



Saturday, January 19, 2019

What We're Eating This Week 2/52

Sunday:
HOCKEY
Monday:
Spaghetti and meatball, like for real, not from a jar, green beans, garlic bread
Tuesday:
TACO TUESDAY
Wednesday:
Pork chops, broccoli, stuffing, brownies
Thursday:
HOCKEY
Friday:
Jack and I have a date
Saturday:  MOVIE NIGHT.

Thursday, January 17, 2019

Back to work week 1

This was a perfect way to eases back into the semester.  I started the week with a 2-day seminar on Monday and Tuesday all day.  Then I had assorted administrative tasks on Wednesday and led a full day of meetings today.  Tomorrow is just odds and ends, and the students come back next week.

This week I:


  • Kept up with house work.
  • Read a ton of books.
  • Cooked dinner every night and came in under budget grocery-wise, even with a few lunches out
  • Adjuncted online with relative efficiency.
  • Was generally pleasant to my family, despite being a bit stressed out.
  • Wasted a bit of time online.


This week I did not:


  • Stay on top of my fitness goals.


There were days when I only drank coffee and wine-- no water at all.  There were days that I ate way out of my eating window and basically abandoned the whole concept of intermittent fasting.  There were days when I used my elliptical as a sanding desk, which is not really a workout. So, next week, I need to get back on the fitness horse with water, 5 or more servings of fruits and veggies, and also EXERCISE that makes me sweat.


  • Write my book.


So, listen.  I lost about 50 pages in the computer disaster, but I haven't been making good progress for awhile now. It could be maybe that the computer disaster if for the best/isn't as bad as it appears on the surface.  But also that could be wishful thinking.


  • Take very many pictures


I think this is because I feel so bummed about my computer, and it's so hard to do anything with pictures on this old thing.  But!  I finally turned on Messages (which was an ordeal and please don't let this thing crash before I get a new one), and now I am back in the mundane business of documenting my food.

This salad, though:
Dorothy gave herself a makeover:

Tuesday, January 15, 2019

Still worrying about that computer; thanks for noticing.

What I need to do is take this entire iPhoto library (because that's what it is on the giant old computer-- an actual iPhoto library, not a Photo library and not a collection of pictures that talks at all to the Cloud) and drag it onto a hard drive.  And then I can feel better about my computer life.  Because it has been 1184 days since I have backed this sucker up.  WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!

A new laptop (ROSE GOLD!!) is on the way, and lots and lots of my stuff was in various places-- google drive, Canvas, Box, etc.  But not all of it, and it is going to be really hard to know what I am missing until I go to grab something and am like OH MY GOD WHERE IS MY PRECIOUS?

It's going to be an exciting semester, is what I am saying.

In other news, I have had to go to work every day this week and classes haven't even started yet.
AND THESE ARE THE PHOTOS ON THIS COMPUTER.

GAH.

Pro: I wore these shoes today

Con: It took 7 minutes to get these pics into this post.
Imagine waking up from a nap and seeing this:
Scary, yes?

Saturday, January 12, 2019

What We're Eating This Week 2/52

Sunday: Pasta casserole, garlic bread, green beans
Monday: Fish sticks, mac and cheese, peaches, more green beans
Tuesday: Crock pot chicken noodle soup, bread, apples
Wednesday: Some weird mash up of leftovers, plus also things we can air fry and or frozen pizza (PLANNING TO FAIL)
Thursday: Grilled chicken, salads, baked potatoes
Friday: MOVIE NIGHT!!